Friday, February 27, 2015

Fixed Gaze

Dear God,
I come before you tonight offering my most sincere thanks and humble praise for who you are. Thank you God for this life, for the blessings you've given us, and the opportunity to direct our lives to you.

God the girls are doing so well. Kate's 10 months, all of the sudden not an infant anymore. Caroline's 3 going on 13, and life is just moving so quickly God. God there are really deep stirrings in my soul about the type of mother I want to be, the example I want to be for my girls. And God there are also all these things I want for them in this life - friends, a great school, happiness, talents, manners, respect, laughter, joy, depth, intellect, success - and sometimes I confess I get so focused on trying to perfect myself, or trying to chase after all those things, that I forget the most important thing: fixing my eyes on you. I believe God that when I fix my eyes on you, the rest of life will follow. God tonight I pray that you force my gaze your way. I pray you keep me from looking to other mothers, other families and the way they live their lives, I pray you keep me focused on you. I know comparison and self-doubt are not your ways, and I want to walk in your way.

God I ask you to guide and direct me, Dan, Caroline and Kate. God I ask guidance for our families, our friends, our church, the people with whom we do business and our neighbors. God please show up big in these places, please take the evil and wrongdoing and set it aside, please fix all of us on living the types of lives that please you. God let us not waste a moment of this life you've given us, and keep us mindful that each day could easily be the last.

Thank you Lord for the peace and joy I feel filling my life.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Laying down my worry

Dear God,
I offer you praise for who you are. You are mighty, powerful, creator and savior and for that I give you thanks. God this last week I feel evil trying to creep into the corners of my heart - I've been nervous, anxious and fearful Lord. Tonight I offer all of my fears and worries to you God. I lay them down before you and ask you to take them from me and wrap me in your grace, salvation, confidence and protection. God please don't let me feel worry any more.

Lord I also thank you for the work you're doing in our lives. Please continue to help us grow friendships and community for both me and Dan, and Caroline and Kate. Please surround us with Christian families we can enjoy this life with. God please help me to feel at home here, to settle down and know I'm loved.